*sigh* Why Am I Up So Early?

I should be sleeping. It's Saturday. But no, I just HAD to get up at 6:30. I don't need to leave for another two hours! Bah. And there's no point in going back to sleep, that'll just make me more groggy.

I still don't feel like knitting- which is a problem today, beacause I'm going to have A LOT of free time on my hands.

Oh, why am I going to this silly bead thing anyway? I could be sleeping, warm in my bed... Instead of awake and blogging about why I'm not.

Ah well. My cat demands my attention, so I guess I'll finish this later.

It's HERE

And it was a bitch to move. Not that I didn't expect it to be. It IS a piano after all. It came with music, we're weeding through it now.

My uncle is officially an ass. He's one of those people that has this innate talent for getting under my skin and pissing me off. Grr

I have the hiccups. They hurt. And make it rather difficult to type. :(

My cat's not sue he likes the piano yet. He keeps looking at it like it might sprout a head and six legs and try to eat him.

I'm hungry. But not for cat. Salem's to cute and fluffy to eat, anyway.

At Last...

We're getting our piano today! W00t! This means I can get going on my cello arrangements! Yes! My days of boredom are over! Mostly.... Actually no.

I seem to have forgotten one very important thing: We will need to have it tuned.
We won't have the money for that until next month... THEN I can start with the arrangements. And school. This timing sucks, but a least I'll have a few weeks to get going, and I'm only at Delta two days a week. I'll keep my chin up.

Oh yeah. My uncle called to tell us they were moving the piano today- went on a rant about how the grass isn't cut yet. My mom almost hung up on him. I think she should have. He's so rude sometimes, I really can't stand him. It's slated for Sunday, so there.

So I Found This Site...

It's called "Meetup.com"
I suppose it's a decent idea, so I joined a local Self Help group. There aren't any meetings scheduled yet, but I'll go when there is one. I hope I fit in okay. Last night just left really awful taste in my mouth- I'm sick of being all alone.

Or just sick
Twisted....

Ah well, we all have our little quirks. Least that's what they tell me.

Bummer! No New Messages In Your Inbox

Yea. I've noticed. Sucks, when you don't have any real friends. Grr this is soo depressing. That and my mom's bitching at me for every little thing today- I think the heat finally got to her. Agh *covers ears* Make it stop already. This won't be a pleasant post, I can tell you that.

So about the friends thing.... Wonder what I should do? Should I go and find new friends? How do I do that? All my life, everything's just fallen into place for me, I never really had to try to get friends... Maybe I'm a jerk or something... Maybe they really didn't want to be my friend in the first place and I just couldn't take a hint... What if I'm an awful person?

How do you make new friends?
Semester hasn't started yet.
I don't have a job yet.
How am I supposed to do this?
I don't even think my family likes me anymore.

*headdesk*
I hate my life right now, I really do. What I wouldn't give to be normal. Just once.

What does that even mean anyway? What the fuck is normal? How do you be normal?...

Well aren't I in a lovely, cheerful mood today. Rant about the city, the friends, the family, myself, social standards... What else can I bash in the confines of one little post and not have my computer explode from all the negativity?

Yay stupidity. I should just stop now, while I'm sort of ahead. No sense whining about the things I can't change. If I don't have friends now, I never will... Maybe I don't want frinds anyway (lie). And who wants their family to like them? Pah, lame... (I do.)
And Normal? What is that? Who cares what's normal and not. Maybe I should just flip off life and do whatever I want. (That's not a good idea.)

Or maybe I should just shut up and do some serious thinking about what's wrong with everything I've written here. I do want friends, and if my family can't like me, then who ever will? As for normal- screw it. I just want to be happy. And I don't think that's too much to ask.

Why is it That I Can Never Find Anything?

Soo... No on the upload for a while. The cord to my camera is buried in a giant box. Seriously. I could fit in this box. And there's a whole shit-ton of other stuff in the box too, so until I have a helper and a lot of spare time, videos and photos are out of ze question. lol the irony.

I need to cut the grass again; the weeds are getting obnoxious. AGAIN. Maybe tomorrow, if it's nice out. I lack the initiative and the gasoline at the moment. These posts are getting really short again, but there's really nothing happening. Nothing to write down to remember. Nothing worth remembering. Why is there nothing interesting to do in this town for more than three days? Seriously... Bay City has got to be the most boring place on Earth.

I say seriously a lot, don't I?

Bay City May Be Boring...

But we put on a damn good fireworks display. The finale was FANTASTIC. again. lol

The cookout went well, though we ate inside because of the outrageous heat index. Fruit pizza is gone- it always is. Other than that, I really don't have anything new to report, except that I need to shower again to get the bugspray and cigarette smoke off me. I'll put up the video I took of the fireworks tomorrow, when I'm actually awake enough to do so. For now, I'll sign off and say goodnight.